I wrote this the night Bruce was born. Just able to post it now.
I'm up late sitting in my hospital bed in the dark. Mike is sleeping in a chair across from me. I'm glad he is, and I wish I was. Sleeping, I mean.
And I feel all sorts of weird, and sleep isn't going to happen any time soon.
It's been a busy week. Lots of in and outs with the hospital. Lots of appts and uncertainty and worrying, and lots of crawling into bed upset that by 9am I was already needing to crawl back into bed.
Just a few days before Bruce arrived.
This afternoon Mike and I went to my OBGYN appt hoping for some clarity on what was going to happen, but certainly not expecting to have a baby in our arms within hours. My blood pressure was high. High enough to be sent straight to labour & delivery for monitoring. Bummer :(
We'd spent many days recently sitting in L&D listening to the swoosh swoosh swoosh of our baby's heartbeat. Once there and settled in with the monitors, my blood pressure remained higher than its ever been. Scary high. But I still expected to get the boot after an hour or so. That's what we were used to.
No one had come out and said that we were delivering yet, but things started seeming fishy with the staff. They did a cervical exam which they've never done as part of my monitoring before, they gave me a funny red bracelet besides the regular one they usually put on me, and several people asked me when the last time I ate was. Hmmmm.... Then a nurse came in to give me an iv.
Wait a minute...what is going on? Have I even been admitted?? I may have panicked..just a little.
The doctor came in and explained that the baby had to be delivered. Now. And since he was breech, it would be a csection.
And I'm next up.
Me and my diet coke bottles letting people know it was go time.
Mike got to do all the fun stuff :/
They scurried off leaving Mike and I alone. I wasn't mentally prepared, and this felt very fast and out of my control. Before I knew, it I was walking with my iv bag into the OR. I was still trying to figure out how I was going to get out of this situation, but the only way out of it is through it!
Surprisingly (sarcasm) my BP once in the OR was astronomical. I was quiet and still except for some uncontrollable shaking, but when your blood pressure is being steadily monitored you can't really hide your nerves.
A nurse tried to soothe me so they could start the spinal. I assured her I was ok, but the doctor said we couldn't start like this. They stopped everything and brought Mike in early to try to calm me down. It worked, and they quickly kicked him out to finish prepping me before bringing him back in for the big show.
Wouldn't you calm down for this guy??
I was surprised how long it took (and how much tugging and pulling) to get baby out. Seemed to take forever. Once I heard him cry I started crying (of course).
They quickly held him up for me before stealing him away.
He went straight to the waiting nicu team because he was only 34 weeks gestation.
He was 5lbs 8ozs
We're can't wait to bring him home❤️
April 17th, 2015 9:20pm
Bruce Wayne Lush